2017! A new year and probably not a new me. At least not a new me like as if it switched when we switched over to 2017, but if you ask me on 31st of December this year, then probably some things (hopefully for the better!) have changed for me. The bookshop I was working in during the holidays had this beautiful wall calendar with different illustrated plants for every month, and I’d looked at it for a while until a customer was so close to buying the last one but decided not to, that I bought it. It was a bit pricey for its original price, so thank god for staff discount!
I’ve been back in Egham for a couple of days now, and literally just been busy writing one of my essays and trying to not cry over all uni work I have to do within the next 8 days. (I haven’t finished a single assignment yet, so) But I’m kinda doing alright, like I could’ve done better but at least I’m not totally stuck. It’s just going to be and feel very good when all of this chunk of work is over.
I’m still in the process of writing down my thoughts about 2016. That year was a stark contrast to 2015, a year when I got basically all I wished for, and a year that changed me a lot. 2016 changed me too, but in another way, and I’m still figuring out how to put it into words.
However, despite all the change that happened to me last year, all the worrying and fears, I do feel that 2017 is going to be better. I’m hoping to get an internship/work placement during the summer (any tips are welcome!), and I’m most likely going to Berlin in April to see Maria and Gustaf who will be moving there for the spring. Because I don’t know how my summer will look like yet, I don’t know when I’m going back to Stockholm next time, or for how long it will be. & in some ways, that hurts, as I realised when I was back, how much I miss it. Yes, Stockholm will always be there waiting for me, but it will change until I come back for good. (literally, we’re getting a new tube line apparently)
It’s alright thought. It makes me grateful for all the technology we have and that I’m not stuck in 1717 when it was like winning the lottery if your snail mail letter ever came through. Hope you all are having a great start to 2017!